Author Archives: monocurious

About monocurious

I'm like air, forever flowing, moving, changing, gaining and losing myself, undefinable. View my complete profile

The Goddess Within

I want to be important. I hope to write something that’s pleasing and relevant. I want you to fall in love with me, to be charmed by my appeal, to be seduced by my wit and clever words. I want … Continue reading

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The Flasher and The Tinsel Tree, Part 1

My hair fell in fine strands down the center of my back, in winter months it was a rich brown with hints of gold, a stark contrast to my ballet-pink skin and soft blue eyes. I was a thin and … Continue reading

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Posted in 1979 Atlanta, addicition, bungalow classics, Church Van, crossing boundaries, crotch cutter jeans, flasher, molestation, paranoia | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

When Nikki Started To Grind

The summer of 1984 my mother and I went to visit her friend who lived out in the country in a doublewide trailer with her three children and her fourth husband. She, like my mother, was a drug addict. But … Continue reading

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Posted in addicition, Amphetamines, Creative Writing, crossing boundaries, Dating Lesbians, Doublewide Trailer, Erection | Tagged , , , , , | 2 Comments

Cock Blocked

When I first sit down to write I take a few deep breaths and say a little prayer, asking for guidance and the courage to be honest, open and willing. I get quiet and feel out my gut. What is … Continue reading

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Posted in addicition, Alanon, Authentic Self, Awareness, Break-Up, Break-ups, Breaking Patterns, change, crossing boundaries, Dating Lesbians, Expectations, game playing, games, grief, Honesty, in love with a woman, Lesbian Break-up, Lesbian Breakup, Lesbian Friends, loss, love, Mending A Broken Heart, Mind/Body Connection, Open Fractured Heart, painful childhood memories, Self-love, Self-talk, selfworth, wounds | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 8 Comments

The Ethical Hooker

Hey there, sweetheart. How are you feeling these days? No, how are you really feeling? Sit with the question without popping off some bullshit answer. I don’t care one bit about the surface you—you in costume. Please, I offer, go … Continue reading

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Posted in Airing Grievances, and Hookers, Cos Play, Creative Writing, Education, Ethical Hooker, forty-niner, Gold Digger, Left brain, Pimps, Right brain, The Ethical Slut, The Happy Hooker, Vanity | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

Polyamory

So I have a major crush. Hold up. No. It’s more than a crush. I am in love with a couple. Actually, I am in love with many couples. I have this thing for couples that have been together for … Continue reading

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Posted in Big Love, marriage, patriarch, platonic love, poly, polyamory, radical love, relationships, role playing, romantic love, serenity, three some, tough love, tri-ad | Tagged , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Part Two, Primal Love

I hesitate. Shit. I don’t want to do this tonight. Writing takes a lot out of me, as much as it feeds me, it also requires a lot of courage. My center aches, it’s angry and powerful. I am brave; … Continue reading

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Posted in Authentic Self, Break-Up, Break-ups, Breaking Patterns, change, Confidence, Dating Lesbians, Deconstruction, denial, Divorce, grief, in love with a woman, Jewish affairs, Lesbian, Lesbian Break-up, Lesbian Breakup, Lesbian Friends, Lesbian Partnership, loss, love, Magic, painful childhood memories, Self-love, selfworth, Unconditional love | Tagged , , | 1 Comment