Category Archives: Authentic Self

Cock Blocked

When I first sit down to write I take a few deep breaths and say a little prayer, asking for guidance and the courage to be honest, open and willing. I get quiet and feel out my gut. What is … Continue reading

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Part Two, Primal Love

I hesitate. Shit. I don’t want to do this tonight. Writing takes a lot out of me, as much as it feeds me, it also requires a lot of courage. My center aches, it’s angry and powerful. I am brave; … Continue reading

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Fuck, There’s No Proof

As I was saying, I want proof. Before I started writing about my relationship I wanted proof that it was going to work. I didn’t want to feel humiliated again if this shit didn’t last, but as we all know … Continue reading

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Come To Me

I want the words to come. I don’t know how to make them take shape to form what I’m trying to say. I want them to be good, impressive even. I need you to think I’m interesting, that I have … Continue reading

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Women

It all started with a woman (Doesn’t every great story?) I blame her. She’s the reason for the re-invention, the changeling before the unveiling of what’s next. It’s happening. Who I’m becoming remains unknown. I’m growing into that woman. I … Continue reading

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Imaginary Choices, Imaginary Lovers

Imaginary choices, Imaginary Lovers’, Hmm, so here I am again, relying on my trusted companion–my writing to get me out of a good mind fucking. You know, I do this thing—(I) write problematic monologues and then try to fight my … Continue reading

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The 2%, Getting Real

Things are progressing with me, I’m changing. I am finding my way (partially) through my anger towards ________, and this happening by taking responsibility for my role in the break-up; and seeing how I actually (somewhat) invited it to happen. … Continue reading

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