Category Archives: Breaking Patterns

Cock Blocked

When I first sit down to write I take a few deep breaths and say a little prayer, asking for guidance and the courage to be honest, open and willing. I get quiet and feel out my gut. What is … Continue reading

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Part Two, Primal Love

I hesitate. Shit. I don’t want to do this tonight. Writing takes a lot out of me, as much as it feeds me, it also requires a lot of courage. My center aches, it’s angry and powerful. I am brave; … Continue reading

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Primal Love

Hmm. Some things just feel unspeakable because saying them will make them true and sometimes the truth is too painful to know, so I avoid it. But this time I went towards it. I didn’t run away from myself. Early … Continue reading

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Fuck, There’s No Proof

As I was saying, I want proof. Before I started writing about my relationship I wanted proof that it was going to work. I didn’t want to feel humiliated again if this shit didn’t last, but as we all know … Continue reading

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The Ways Of Love

I don’t know about you but I have a hard time accepting love. I don’t trust it. People give and receive love in all sorts of ways, and people take their love away, be it an hour at a time … Continue reading

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Women

It all started with a woman (Doesn’t every great story?) I blame her. She’s the reason for the re-invention, the changeling before the unveiling of what’s next. It’s happening. Who I’m becoming remains unknown. I’m growing into that woman. I … Continue reading

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