Category Archives: Expectations

Cock Blocked

When I first sit down to write I take a few deep breaths and say a little prayer, asking for guidance and the courage to be honest, open and willing. I get quiet and feel out my gut. What is … Continue reading

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Posted in addicition, Alanon, Authentic Self, Awareness, Break-Up, Break-ups, Breaking Patterns, change, crossing boundaries, Dating Lesbians, Expectations, game playing, games, grief, Honesty, in love with a woman, Lesbian Break-up, Lesbian Breakup, Lesbian Friends, loss, love, Mending A Broken Heart, Mind/Body Connection, Open Fractured Heart, painful childhood memories, Self-love, Self-talk, selfworth, wounds | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 8 Comments

Fuck, There’s No Proof

As I was saying, I want proof. Before I started writing about my relationship I wanted proof that it was going to work. I didn’t want to feel humiliated again if this shit didn’t last, but as we all know … Continue reading

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A Cry For Help

I’m the loneliest girl in the world in the most dramatic sense. I’m looking over the ledge of a hotel room balcony, twenty-three floors up, night has taken the sky, the wind blows my hair across my face, I can … Continue reading

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Posted in Affliction, crossing boundaries, Expectations, faith, Lesbian, Lesbian Break-up, Lesbian Partnership, Lesbian's and their Ex, loss, love, painful childhood memories, parenting, savior, second chances, Self-love, Self-talk, Starting over, sudden death, suicide, tragic death, Unconditional love, Wound Care | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Men/Women And Dating

I really want to get down on, and share with you my experiences with dating, however, I’ve decided to keep quiet about it for a while. But keep reading and checking back with me because when I’m ready I will … Continue reading

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Posted in Break-up Sex, Divorce, Expectations, Fantasy Girls, in love with a woman, Lesbian, Lesbian Marriage, Lesbian sex, love, sex, Sexual Continuum | Tagged , , , | 4 Comments

Pause The Tragic Ending

I’ve wanted nothing more than to pause this tragic ending, but that isn’t an option. Don’t get me wrong, my brain has been scheming plenty, but I haven’t acted on any of it, in fact I’ve done nothing but cry, … Continue reading

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Posted in Break-ups, Death, Divorce, Expectations, Gay Men, in love with a woman, Lesbian, Lesbian Marriage, loss, love, Rachel Yamagata, wounds, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

The Voice Of A Ghost

If I’m being honest, sometimes I feel like I can’t get it right. I’m ashamed about not having a college degree. I’m afraid I can’t take care of myself. I have a lot of fears about what I think I … Continue reading

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The Gift

“Take this overcoat of shame, it never did belong to me.” Annie Lenox The lightening struck, my eyes were closed yet pierced by a bold, electrifying light. I felt the residue of color, if that’s possible, on the center of … Continue reading

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